Monday July 7th, 2008
This may be my last post on this site. We will be shutting down sometime in the next few weeks. It just doesn’t make sense to continue at this point.
We’re doing OK. What would have been Zoë’s 10th birthday is Saturday (July 12th). It’s so hard to believe. Many of you have asked me how I plan on spending the day and I guess I won’t know for certain until it lands but I’m pretty sure it will be quietly. I just can’t ‘celebrate’ something that isn’t anymore – and I’m sure you can all respect that. It’s not like I’m forgetting (by no means at all) it’s just that I have to strike a balance between grieving and moving on with my life. So right now, this year in this frame of mind it means quietly at home with Chris and Jaxon.
I’ve dialled back quite a bit in my advocacy work. I realized that although promoting those charities that were there for us did help me keep Zoë’s memory alive - but it was also causing me a tremendous amount of pain. Truthfully, I have many many more years on this earth to do the right thing, raise awareness, scream from the roof tops, etc...but right now I need to get better.
Now all that doesn’t mean that I’m dropping of the planet, I’m still planning on hosting a blood drive every March (for as long as they let me) and I do hope to help out here and there with various IWK events. Beyond that, who knows?
I’m still working at T4G; they’ve been so amazing and supportive. Chris is returning to school to study Early Childhood Development and Jaxon...well he’s amazing. He’s really into skateboarding, riding his bike and swimming – he’s turning out to be quite the character too. Sometimes when I look at him I can see a little bit of his sister in his face and in his expressions. I am so please that she has left a lasting impression on him.
Feel free to continue to email me (jennifer.guimond@gmail.com) I love hearing from you and hearing how Zoë impacted you life. I’d also like to recommend that you visit an amazing site that puts faces to those who receive your blood donations: www.thankyourdonor.ca
Thank you for checking in, for keeping us in your thoughts and for everything.
Jenn
